Crime and Punishment all right

I'm reading Crime and Punishment.  I have to.  I'm supposed to teach it in the fall with some sense of authority.  I've owned the copy I'm currently reading for YEARS.  But why does reading about crime and punishment feel like I have committed a crime and am being punished for it?  The good news is I am getting in some really great naps.  Please send words of encouragement or if you've read it, give me a teaser, something to look forward to so I can not look like a dolt in front of my students.  Please and thank you!